Gotta Keep Moving…

Even when I feel weary on this journey, I know it’s up to me to keep on moving and not let the storms get the best of me. Even when I am tired and unhappy in this position I am in, I know that I  must keep moving forward for I am preparing myself for a better future. It may not look clear now, nor may I ever understand but one things for sure I have to keep moving forward. In the midst of obstacles, I may feel defeated and cheated, but that shouldn’t stop me from moving forward. In the times when I feel like crying because the journey seems too hard, I have to keep moving forward. Today when i received my midterm exam back and i felt like i didnt perform at my best, I know i couldn’t walk away, but I know I keep moving forward. When I sit in this lonely hall at my job, feeling like I should be doing more, feeling like I’m not making a difference, feeling like throwing in the towel, one thing I keep in mind is that I have to keep moving forward….

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Believing In U When No One Else Does…

Feelings of guilt, hurt, shame and defeat seems to be all I know because it has been the most consistent part of my being. You can bet your bottom dollar when friends leave, family is nowhere to be find, things not going as planned, I can count on these feelings to always be around even when I don’t invite them into my heart. The reason I doubt myself and abilities is because I have these deep rooted feelings that I can’t seem to get rid of, I pray and I pray but I still feel the same way, lost and confused. Confused about who I am, what’s my purpose, why this, why that. Hell, these feelings are the reason I need validation on everything I do, these feelings keep me from doing the things I need to do because I’m too busy living in the past missing every opportunity to celebrate my present that is setting me up for a better future. These feelings can cause you to lay up and bed at night, wondering Why ME, question the will God has for your life. These feelings make you question your ability to be great, because you can’t let go of the hate you once received, the moments you couldn’t achieve and the people who didn’t believe. All along forgetting about the person who matters most, the one who deserves to boast, cause she did that. ME…

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Fighting Through Obstacles…

Life seems to throw us obstacles, some harder than others. However, it is important to note that it is all about how you handle these obstacles when faced with them. I understand that shit can and will get rough as long as you are on God’s green earth, but it doesn’t have to have such a huge bearing on your life. It should not cause you stress and depression. Simply, it shouldn’t STOP YOU….Remember, what does not kill you, makes you stronger. Yea, I know in the midst of the situation, it seems like the worse of the worse. You are probably wondering how and when will you ever make it through this rough patch. Hell, I am going through now and I tell you I am praying for better days but I can’t help but worry. However, it shouldn’t be like that, but the flesh wants to give in, I’m human dammit. I learned that if I am going to pray don’t worry, but if I am going to worry don’t pray. Makes a lot of sense huh, it does to me but it takes a lot of growth, patience and faith.  Your relationship has to become stronger in God, in order to believe greatness comes after the storm. It is important to know that God is not through with you yet, this is just a test for a greater testimony. Hard to believe now, but oh will you rejoice once your ship has finally come…

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Focus…

How do you focus when you have so much going on around you? How do you focus when you are on the right track, but those around you are not? How do you focus when the mind wonders and roams? It seems like the harder you work, the more distraction creeps up on you. Sometimes it is best to remove yourself from all things that get in the way of you reaching your goals and following your dreams. It’s like you defeat one level, just to have to defeat another but it’s a part of life. You can’t focus on the negative, but you have to focus on the positive even when it seems like it may not be going thr way you want it to at the time. When you continue to keep your eyes on the prize, you won’t allow distractions to deter you. You will make distractions your foot stool and use it as motivation to reach your goals…

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Finding Peace (When You Aint Right Within)

I think we all want that little bit of peace in such a fast paced life. Sometimes you just want to stop and smell the fresh air and let the summer breeze roll through the Jasmine in your mind. The question that I have is, how do you get that little bit of peace when you ain’t right within. I feeling that you have to be right within in order to embrace outer peace. If your mind is always racing and you are never at ease with self how can you be at ease with others. Peace starts from within and follows you where ever  you go. If you have a conflict with self, you will find that you have a conflict with just about everyone and everything else. The battle between you and self disturbs your inner and outer peace because there’s an inbalance. Peace isn’t just about having a quiet place in your home, but a quiet place in your mind, body and soul. Sometimes, we experience noise in our minds as well. We can go a lifetime not realizing that we are not right within because we have become comfortable in this place of unnormalcy that we never get that peace that we oh so need. It is only when we are aware and willing for change that we begin to build our little place of peace in our mind, body and soul…..

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Accepting Life For What It Is (Playing The CardsYou Were Dealt)

How do you learn to accept your life for what it is, especially when things are not going as planned or when everyone around you seems to be progressing, but you feel like your at a stand still ? Have it ever occurred to you that God has a plan for your life that you sometimes may not understand. I know it can be frustrating when you have a plan for your life, but it seems like everything but what you planned is happening. Hell, it becomes even more hurtful when you never thought in a million years, you would be where you are at that moment in time because the key is IT  WAS YOUR PLAN, NOT GOD’S PLAN….Sometimes I feel that we make life harder when we try to lead by our own understanding and not God’s understanding and we never learn to ACCEPT THE THINGS WE CAN NOT CHANGE, BUT CHANGE THE THINGS THAT WE CAN. Some things are not in our control and we have to learn to JUST GO WITH IT AND ACCEPT LIFE FOR WHAT IT IS. I know that this can be so easy to say, but when it comes to doing it, it can be a process. You have to train your mind to not think about the negative, but look at the positive. Sometimes you have to simply just PLAY THE HAND YOU WERE DEALT TO THE BEST OF YOUR ABILITY BECAUSE ONE DAY YOU WILL COME OUT AS THE WINNER….

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